Sunday, February 7, 2010

pessimistic day...

Today has been weird... ever since Tim and I got good news we have been living in this fantasy world, thinking oh this will be a piece of cake once we get my 20lbs lost and get the clomid going. We went to babies r us and looked around, we are in the market for a new car and went yesterday to look and picked out an SUV and talked about how perfect it would be for baby, today a friend of mine talked me into going to motherhood maternity with her and then had me put on the fake belly, DH and I keep saying well when we get pregnant this or that... why am I doing this to myself? I suddenly have an overwhelming feeling that this isn't going to be a walk in the park and feel as though I am giving myself false hope :( idk why I suddenly feel so pessimistic but it really sucks! I am trying to keep telling myself to leave it all in God's hands but that is easier said than done... for now I am going to just believe his will shall be done and in time we will be blessed with a beautiful miracle!


  1. Hang in there. I'm on the exact same emotional roller coaster, plenty of frustration and whatnot, and I know so much of it is about hope and patience. I'm sending you good thoughts. I'm on Clomid too (was on Provera until Clomid kicked in--first cycle didn't work, but the second and third have) and have done Metformin as well, but it upset my stomach too much. So many mood swings, etc. It's exhausting!


  2. Hope things are going well and that your March 1st appointment had good news!