Sunday, January 31, 2010

Babies R..not yet... us

Hello everyone!! I hope you are all doing wonderful! We have some testing coming up so I wanted to fill everyone in!

Tomorrow morning at 11:45 we have two imparitive tests going on. I am having my HSG (basically they use sonography and dye to look at my reproductive system and make sure there is no blockage) and Tim is having his analysis. We will have the results while we are there and while I am nervous, both about the results and about the procedure, I am hopeful for a great outcome! Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers tonight!

Now to show you how ridiculous we are lol. Today Tim and I took a little trip with some friends to Babies R Us... I had a blast lol! Tim was so cute looking at everything saying what he liked and didn't like! I think we may possibly have all of baby #1's things picked out and we aren't even pregnant lol!! While I was standing there it hit me... what if this doesn't happen as quickly as we hope? What if we get bad news tomorrow? Then I remembered... today church was all about mountains, how we all face them and how God can move them out of our way or help us climb them. I remembered at church this morning when Pastor Keith said anyone who is facing a mountain in your life pray and leave it in God's hands... I prayers a simple prayer to leave all of this up to him! So, for now I am breathing in and out and taking this one day, one step and one prayer at a time!

Thank you all for your support... we couldn't get through all of this emotion and struggle alone!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Sorry for the delay...

Well between ATT and its craziness and now my laptop pooping on me... the internet has not been around in my house! So my hubby and I decided to buy a desktop! I am sick of my laptop having issues while I am in school and I need something reliable! I am so happy to have my internet back!

So now for some updates!!

My husband has volunteered to go to Haiti. We aren't sure if or when he will be going! At first I wasn't sure how I felt about it, but then I realized that this is something he feels called to do and it is very noble and honorable of him. So I have decided that as his wife all I can do is support him!

I have decided that I will continue my path in school for a degree in education... there is no sense in me just going for nursing or rad tech for the money and/or quickness of the degree, it is not truly where my heart is and I think in the end I would be miserable. I spoke to a counselor at UTA and I already have all but 3 of my core credits complete and those three can be completed during the education program, so I plan on begining in the fall! I will obtain a degree in early childhood through 4th grade education!

I have lost 7lbs as of last Saturday! I am proud... however with coming off of the Provera and having a cycle... it has made me eat things I shouldn't lol! But I think I will at least lose a couple this week! Only about 20 to go before they start the Clomid :)! Monday morning Tim and I have some more testing. I am having an HSG to check my tubes and makes sure we don't have any blockage there... I am very nervous so prayers are welcome! I am hoping that we both get positive news after the testing and luckily we will find out same day right there in the office, no waiting required :)!

Tim and I started attending a Wednesday night Bible Study class and I am loving it! It is a class specifically for young marrieds and Tim and I have been able to relate so much to some of the things they are teaching! Matt and Rachel are the teachers and they do such a great job! Our first visit, last week, something weighed heavy on my heart to ask for the groups prayers with our IF issues... I cried like a baby lol... I felt so ridiculous but Rachel did such a fabulous job with giving me support, guidance and confidence that it was going to be OK and God has a plan for us and this will happen in time! I am so thankful for Whitney talking me into joining this church it has done so much for me already! I look forward to continuing attending!

Well everyone that is about it for updates! I will post again soon! love you all and God bless :)

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

13 again...

So I am on day 8 of Provera.... and it sucks! The emotional aspect only lasted about 3 days and then I was a normal human being again, but now, I have a pizza face. Yes, I look 13 and it's ridiculous! I really hate this... i normally wear no make up to work and now I am forced to cake it on so I don't scare the small children!!

On a lighter note... all of my blood work minus the Insulin Resistance test came back... I am disease free, my thyroid is within normal range, I am O negative, immune to rubella, and I am not a cystic fibrosis carrier lol yay me! I am hoping to get the Insulin results back this afternoon so that I will know if I need to start taking metformin.

NEWS FLASH... for those of you I have called freaking out to, my husband has decided to get out of the Navy. His current enlistment is up February of next year, however, he is going to try to extend for one more year so that we can finish school. I am currently debating on Radiology Tech and Nursing school either way I would be done about two months after his extension would end. We haven't decided where we will live yet. Of course we both want to move to our hometowns, his being Elk River, MN and mine being Here in Texas but we are tying to weigh our options and see which will be better for our family!

I promise not to make my next post so long from now like I did before! I hope all of you have a blessed day :)

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Provera is an emotional rollercoaster!

I began taking my Provera (to initiate a cycle) on Tuesday evening. My mom recommended I take it at night because a lot of patients get nauseated and that way I could sleep through it. I took my first dose at 9PM, by 11 i was a wreck!! I became infuriated over a petty comment made and blew up at someone that I should not have.... then the waterworks... I started crying and didn't really know why! Yesterday I had an extravaganza with ATT... i cried and yelled at the cable guy and to the customer service people on the phone... so now the world thinks I am insane! Thank goodness I only have to take this med for 10 days... my poor husband might run away by then!!

My GTT/Insulin Resistance test is at 7:45 on Saturday morning... I get to drink some really disgusting glucose stuff and get my blood taken every hour for 3 hours... ugh... wish me luck or rather the phlebotomist, on this Provera I am willing to go crazy on people sticking me and digging around for a vein!

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Tiny dots all over!!

Today was our first appointment with the RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist) and we got better news than I had anticipated! I thought sure they would tell me oh sorry no babies for you, but that wasn't the case! I was Dx (diagnosed) with PCOS or Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. For those of you who don't know, basically this mean I have plenty of Folicles/eggs I just don't ovulate correctly! A normal woman's Sonogram of their ovaries should show about 3-5 black dots (eggs) mine had about 10 or more on each ovary! I return to the RE in 2 weeks to have an HSG (a fancy sonogram where there shoot saline into your uterus and tubes to make sure everything is clear), Tim has is analysis and b/w and assuming all is fine with that we have a plan! The RE wants me to lose 30lbs before initiating ovulation (must be lower than 40 BMI and I am at 42.. YIKES)! So I am on a 2-3 month diet, once I lose the weight we will begin Clomid, a drug to induce ovulation. The RE is pretty confident that once I begin ovulating it should happen within 3 cycles! I am so happy and have gotta such positive feedback that I am going to try and stay optimistic about our other testing and hopefully this PCOS will be our only obstacle! Keep us in your thoughts and prayers, our journey isn't over yet!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

God is back on our team!

Not that he ever left us I'm sure! Tim and I have always disagreed on churches. He was raised Catholic and myself... Baptist, so polar opposites basically! Some friends of ours invited us to a new church today and we decided to go (to my surprise he came along)... turns out all of the singing and clapping was ok with him since the preacher was so amazing! I am so happy we found this! It is such a nice church, very contemporary and lots of people our age! I am so relieved to know that I will now be back in my happy place every Sunday and Wednesday and it will be in my heart every day in between! I can't wait to see what he has in store for 2010! Hopefully a beautiful BFP (big fat positive) and a bundle of joy!

Intro to my new venting source!

A lot of you reading this probably know me, but for those of you who don't here is our story!

I married the love of my life... ok so that was so cliche... on January 21, 2006. I have experienced more happiness since then than any person deserves! We married very young both age 20 so we were in no rush to get pregnant! My husband is a Seabee in the Navy and the addition of 6 month deployments also kept my mind off of baby making! We never tried to prevent pregnancy and at times I thought man we are lucky, boy was I mistaken! During my husbands last deployment (March-August 08) we decided to begin trying to conceive when he returned. We did just that and nothing! I have tried OPK's and charting, still nothing. I do not cycle properly so we are thinking this is definately an issue with me! We have finally decided to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist and our appointment is this Tuesday. I am sure there will be a ton of testing for the both of us ahead and I hope to somehow stay sane through it all!

As I continue blogging I will use abbreviations or initials and I am hoping to get a glossary of those on here sometime!

I hope that I can in someway enlighten your day with this blog and hopefully I will keep up with it to the best of my ability! I wish you all happiness and those TTC- happy baby making!